Perceive, Pursue & Protect!

For someone who’s biggest academic achievement is a long lost memory, I have never ventured much into the academic arena. It didn’t take much out of me to keep it that way. I always managed keeping my work life not-so-happening, personal life a balanced wave and academic life dormant!!

Then out of the blue, with no notice whatsoever, crept in few crazy little ideas of future!! I started perceiving things from a different perspective; I started having scary thoughts of pursuing further academics :-O ….. The fact is I suspect I have very few grey cells in my head, I suppose the number is around three….for the first time all the three were put to task at once and the result was destructive…well ALMOST – I enrolled onto a professional course, which I deemed was a great value add!

I was an IDIOT!

I know you would agree with the statement and for all those who would want to say “I know you are, but why this time?” I’ll tell you why!! In the past, I quit my job (the one prior to the current) to get done with a course, which was half tough as this!! I actually QUIT my job, when all I had to do was work and study! There were only two aspects!!Now – not only is this course twice as hard as the earlier one, but I chose to do it while working, cooking, driving (it’s a task, a hideous one)!! WOW!! No WOW - CRAP - I have an emergency - the three grey cells have been assigned to perform one task each and now I have NO GREY CELLS left to retain what I study (when I study)!!

Perception behind the crazy decision – I have never had a professional qualification, but have always worked with people who have one or loads of them…. I have always, in the interviews (two of them for now) been told I can’t be given the position I deserve, since I am not a “QUALIFIED”….it didn’t matter to me much then and neither now…BUT when the three crazy grey things were put to work, MAYBE this side was ruptured and in that academically passionate moment, I decided to try being a professional (yet again)!!!

Current day situation – Five months after enrollment, post 14 classroom sessions – I haven’t touched my books. I do see them around in the house though!!

Current day frustration – I like assuming, I have too little time…too little energy….too little stamina….too much to handle and too much to study!! I like telling everyone I am BUSY, WANT to and YET can’t study. The actual FACTUAL thing is – I, am NOT trying! I am NOT putting in any effort whatsoever to pursue what I perceived! I denied accepting this, until…..

Yesterday, while I was watching the movie ‘In Pursuit of Happyness’ (it’s a awesomely touching movie), there was a particular dialogue, which just took me instantly, when Will Smith (“slurp-slurp-drooollll”) says “You got a dream, you gotta protect it” – how true!! How very true!!!

In my case, I gotta protect mine from myself, from the bad me in me!! If it takes pulling of a grey cell from one of the tasks (above) arbitrarily, I SHALL!!!

The Lost Guardian Angel!

After a very long time, I had taken an auto ride back home – WOW what an experience it was!!! Its like experiencing a roller coaster ride (an appalling one at that) in the heart of your city!

For all those people out there, who lead a dull life, being chauffer driven or self-drive very carefully, carving your way through traffic – lemme enlighten you….you unquestionably are missing something, something so very exhilarating!!!

On a weekday, preferably a Monday (for some unknown reason, I have observed that Mondays are jam packed) you just gotta hire an auto rickshaw from point A to Point B at around 6:30 PM or anytime after that….the auto vrooms, zooms, squeezes in through the smallest of gaps….Traffic rules do not matter…its all in the auto-wala's head, if he feels right to stop at red, he might….else….the vehicle is dragged mercilessly through the traffic!!!

The most exciting or in other words awe-inspiring experience would be when you spot a cab, and not ANY cab, it HAS to be ONLY Indica!! After a whole lot of honking, braking, you wish either the auto or the indica slows down – BUT, (you guessed it) neither do…..both fly….sometimes I wonder if they forget its an abused four wheeler or a rattled three wheeler which they are driving and unfortunately not a wiry bicycle!! Like someone rightly said, its like you are playing a video game, just that, the direction control is with an electrified unknown human in rush to get YOU to reach YOUR home!!!

I guess their indicators would be in a jam someday due to minimal or absolutely no usage!!! It’s the sign of heads and eyes (not even hands) that does the work! “Lemme overtake you” is sooo beautifully conveyed in their fierce one second glance to the co-electrified drivers!

They say, each one of us has a guardian angel….in these cases I guess, a whole set of guardian angels are out in their flying gear all set to guard us and in no time will they all be busy searching for the soul who was to be guarded!!!!!

It’s a perfect reflection of the busiest of worlds that we live in….flawless manifestation of the gung ho atmosphere that we so tirelessly fabricate around us, day after day after day!!

With all due respect to the world of electrified drivers – Please, never drive faster than your guardian angel can fly :-)

Living life in the fast lane!!!

Its funny how we get so damn busy....there was a time when I used to stop and recollect the fond memories of college, childhood - days when I was practically jobless and ofcourse careless.....I realised just this morning, that it has been ages since I even gave my jobless/careless days a thought!!! :-O
I never discerned the symptoms and the dreadful pattern of activities....everything was just fine and suddenly one day, I was struck with a busy life and I should say, it took me by mixed emotions of shock and surprise.

For all those naive, excited and over zealous souls, keep your eyes, ears and mind open to notice any of the below symptoms....for you may either want to put your foot down & opt to stop/slow OR you may already be running around so much that you will hardly find time to put that foot down - don't bother about the former, its just an eye-wash, the latter is the most happeneing - EHAHAHAHA!!!

1. Your weekend is always yesterday!


2. Your breakfast is skipped, lunch is gulped and dinner is bought!


3. One fine day, you see yourself and notice "I am in shape" (just that its round)


4. You love rain - its just that you say "@#%@&%# how do I get home?"


5. Almost every other day you wonder, where you are getting to!!!

Mr. John Jensen once said "The trouble with life in the fast lane is that you get to the other end in an awful hurry" - Smart chap, I should say!!!!
As for me - When I first heard this phrase, I loveeeddd the way it sounded - I was naive :-|